When you lose a sense, it feels like you lose your identity for a bit. Now that I have found ways of doing everything I used to do, things are much easier for me. However there are still many things that I miss.
The one thing I miss the most is reading with my eyes. Although there are many apps available to read to you, it is not the same. I miss being able to read a book, a magazine, the Internet, messages, emails, social media messages, The TV, street signs, body language, labels of products, prices and so much more! I am now learning Braille and am looking forward to Brailling Archer’s books so that I can read to him without having to strain my eyes.
I absolutely love taking photos. I miss not being able to see a photo clearly or if it’s in focus. However, I am very lucky that I can make out a photo and take photos, so I am very thankful for that.
I miss being able to jump in the car and go anywhere I need to go. Sometimes I feel a bit housebound, especially with a new baby. However now he’s getting older I am getting more confident with getting out and about.
I miss making things on the computer. I used to make digital images, invitations, cards and many other things. I am very creative and I am sure I will find my flare again soon.
I miss seeing colours in their true form. I can see what colours are, however it is like there is it dark toner put through them. I am lucky to have 28 years of full colour vision though meaning I am able to visualise colours in their true form.
I miss colour contrast. I can see colours together that are high in contrast, however if two colours are similar it is hard to make out. For example I can’t see if Archer has a rash, but I can usually feel if he has a rash or raised areas. Luckily I have a fully sighted husband and a mother on FaceTime!
I miss doing my make up. I love doing my own make up when I go out. I love dramatic make up, however I am not confident in doing this and I can just apply basic make up at the moment. Luckily I have my mum on FaceTime to ring to see how it looks! I have learnt the hard way with mineral make up; if you can’t see, don’t use it! It ends at all down your front!
I miss walking and running. I am getting more and more independent every day with walking around my local area. I am in the process of applying for a guide dog at the moment so that I can feel safe running again. I can’t wait!
I miss online shopping. My husband Cameron is very happy about this! Enough said!
It is really hard to communicate with fully sighted people how much I can see. Sometimes it doesn’t matter how much I explain, people still don’t get it. I can understand that. The only people that understand is someone with a disability or with a visual impairment. There are plenty of quality living groups to vent all of these frustrations to which has been very helpful.
I do like my personal space! I have had complete strangers grab my waist or arm and pull me across the road or get me off public transport. I know they are only trying to help but it does annoy me. I just have to tell them, thanks for your help, but I am okay. 98% of the time I am usually okay. I only ever really need an arm where when I am walking down flight of stairs without a rail. One or two stairs is okay.
It all seems very overwhelming and daunting at first, however there is an answer to all my questions. It has just taken time to wait things out.