Now the cat is well and truly out of the bag. We are expecting our second little Hocking Critter who we have nicknamed Goose in November. So I thought I would do a little recap on how the pregnancy has been going. It is a bizarre and totally different experience compared to when I was pregnant with Archer. The obvious difference is when I was pregnant with Archer, I was functioning as a healthy 27-28 year old, fully sighted primary school teacher oblivious to what was growing in and around my Octive nerve that would indeed cause a rapid loss of vision. This time around, I am a stay at home mum to two year old Archer, legally blind and yes, brewing another baby boy. So here is a recap on my first trimester.
An honest recap on my first trimester pregnant as a blind mother…
This isn’t actually the first trimester of being pregnant as a blind mother. It is my second attempt. The previous pregnancy, we miscarried at 13 weeks. You can read about our loss here. This time around finding out we were pregnant again was exciting, yet scary and emotional due to our previous experiences and circumstance. Although we planned this, we didn’t expect to fall pregnant so quickly after our miscarriage. So in a way, it was a sense of relief that everything was working as it should. Unlike when we found out we were pregnant with Archer where I went into full on excitement and purchasing books to read and downloading the latest pregnancy apps;I began to mentally prepare for another loss.
- Don’t tell anyone other than Cam
- Don’t go crazy purchasing
- Don’t plan anything
- Don’t get my hopes up
- Keep focusing on what we do have, such as our beautiful little toddler, Archer
- Try and do things I enjoy to take my mind off things such as exercising, blogging and reading.
All of this sounded great in my head, but it didn’t work. From the moment I found out We were pregnant I instantly connected to the pregnancy. The pregnancy occupied much of my thoughts and for 12 weeks, I was constantly running to the toilet to check I wasn’t losing, yet another baby. All I wanted to do was to get to the second trimester where the risk of miscarriage drops and I would begin to notice signs that A little human was growing.
I began to get many pregnancy symptoms like I did with Archer and the last pregnancy that we lost. Still I didn’t get my hopes up because I had experienced them all before and even though we were told by the GP that nausea and vomiting was a good sign, in my mind it was 50/50.
1. Nausea and Vomiting
The nausea hit me like the plague by the sixth week. I constantly felt like I had a red wine hangover that would linger all day. No amount of food or drink would relieve it. By week 7, I was begging the GP for the strongest anti nausea medication she could prescribe. Feeling nauseous and being the primary carer of a toddler was bloody hard. By week eight I was wrapped around the toilet bowl most mornings as soon as I got out of bed. I also vomited at certain smells like milk, meat and even just the fridge. We were on our way to New Zealand for almost two weeks and to be honest, I wasn’t looking forward to it. The medication worked a little bit, but for the whole trip I felt miserable. I tried to enjoy it as much as I could, but the nausea and vomiting was making it really hard. By the time we got home, I spent a few days either in bed or around the toilet bowl. I couldn’t keep food or water down. I was spent. By 12 weeks, the nausea and vomiting started to lift and I was beginning to feel like myself again.
The nausea and vomiting made me exhausted in first trimester. I was in bed as soon as Cameron got home from work. I had no energy to cook dinner often. We were lucky that I was so good with storing left overs in the freezer for healthy meals which made things a bit easier. Cameron was great and took Archer off my hands so I could go to bed early and took some of the load off me. I pretty much missed most of the beautiful scenery on holiday in New Zealand. We covered a lot of kilometres driving from the North to the South Island and I think I slept through most of it.
3. Lack of appetite
I pretty much went off a lot of foods from about six weeks. Apples and apple juice were a go to and also smoothies or juices. I couldn’t stomack milk, but could stomach unsweetened almond milk in my smoothies. For dinners I lived off vegetable soup from the freezer or out of a can. It was far from my usual well balanced diet, but that was what I could manage at the time. I struggled to keep down my pregnancy multivitamins, so I got onto The Healthy Mummy Pregnancy Smoothie to at least give me something. The smoothie mix was not a replacement for my multivitamins, but it was something to get me by until I could stomach them again.
InNew Zealand i had a bit of spot bleeding at eight weeks. This freaked us out because not only were we outside Australia, but I never had spotting in my previous pregnancies. We thought we had lost it for sure. We ended up seeing a doctor privately in New Zealand and got an ultrasound straight away. Turned out it was just the dregs from implantation and nothing to worry about. We booked an appointment with the obstratrician for as soon as we got home just to reaffirm everything was going along smoothly. Hearing that 10 week gestation heartbeat when we got home was pure relief. Yet this experience messed with my head and made me paranoid.
5. Mood change
I didn’t notice a change to my mood in the beginning. however as the weeks went by I became irritable and sensitive. I would cry at the drop of a hat and become a bit snappy. Hormones are just great aren’t they?
I had lots of bloating in first trimester which made me look like I had eaten a large bowl of pasta. My jeans were uncomfortable, but I was too small for maternity jeans. So Jeggings it was. Oh my goodness, if you haven’t discovered Jeggings what world are you from? I will be ruluctant to buy normal jeans again after this baby is born. Leggings and lose fitting shift dresses were also comfortable in these early weeks to hide my bloating and give me comfort.
While these symptoms made first trimester hard and at times miserable, While I wanted to be pregnant more than anything, I felt like crap and this 12 weeks waiting to pass the ‘safe zonefelt like it went on forever. By the time we reached 12 weeks and had our 12 week combined screening test, relief started to set in and I began to feel excited.
When we had the 12 week scan and the percept test it was mentaly a gruelling time because we lost our last pregnancy to a chromosomal variance Trisomy 13. I knew all the questions to ask.
- What is the heart rate?
- Does the heart have four chambers?
- What is the fluid measurement behind the neck?
- What about the other organs, is there an abnormal amount of fluid around them?
- Does the baby have a nasal bone?
These questions were all answered and all our tests came back low risk for chromosomal variances. Our baby was potentially going to be born live and that excited me.
What helped me during first trimester?
- Slowing down and taking a nap when Archer napped.
- Asking for help from Cameron when I needed a break when he got home from work.
- Thee Healthy Mummy Pregnancy Smoothie
- TV… More for Archer. There were times where I was home alone with him and just couldn’t keep my eyes open. I know, i cringe too at the thought of the television being a babysitter. However Archer was safe and it had to happen for my sanity.
- Fresh air and going for walks
- Talking to a couple of girlfriends.
Not sure what people are talking about when they say how glamorous pregnancy is. From my experiences there is nothing glamorous about first trimester. However there are some positives:Knowing that your body is working so hard to create this little human is absolutely amazing! To imagine having their little fingers wrapped tightly around yours, their soft grandpa wrinkles and their big eyes looking out and observing the world around them is a great thought, fantasy and sense of excitement to have. I imagined what Archer would be like as a big brother and the dynamics of our family with an extra member. I can;’t wait and all these ups and downs will be worth it in the end.
Click the following link to view our pregnancy announcement video.
To read more Blind Intuition Pregnancy Diaries Click Here.
This post is linked to the following linkups: